So, I let myself have some self pity and I’m over that now. I’m going to keep pushing forward and figure things out as I go. What good is it for me to have a party that no one wants to go to and I don’t even like being at. I figure if I can be bed ridden eight years ago and fight back why can’t I keep fighting now. I like a good challenge and this is definitely a tough one, the one I’m going to fight and overcome.